I stepped back to look at the various sketches that had channeled through me. I noticed they all had one other thing in common – something that has been a constant in my life - birds. I grinned as my eyes studied the sketches. Then as if absorbing the work internally, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
A memory unfolded.
I was 30 years old, living in San Diego, CA. An unexpected twist of events happened in my life - I’d fallen in love with another woman, a singer, a performer, a vibrant star and a free spirit. The most amazing thing was, she looked at me too – I created a smile in her being as well.
The reality though was that I was still in a relationship. Remember my girlfriend I told you about that met the Entity while we slept side by side – yes her – I was still in a relationship with her. My heart and spirit felt split in half. I did not know how to approach the situation. I was not ready for the unexpected. Yes, of course, being truthful and honest is the answer. And you would think that after everything I have experienced as a young man with the Sacred, my father and the Voice I would at least be mindful enough to approach the situation with clarity, yes I get that but – I choked. I truthfully did not have that capacity in that particular moment to think straight.
I didn’t want to talk about it with my friends anymore either since I noticed it was very taxing on them emotionally and spiritually. So, I began to take long walks, aimless long walks and my mind would race to try to figure it all out. I usually would end up crying out of desperation – nothing that would make my mind and heart be at peace was surfacing. None of the calming of the spirit and clearing of the mind exercises that I knew worked like previous times before.
One day, as I walked through a park I saw this bluish light flash by me. I had been reading books about being in the present moment, so I was making it a habit to be as present as much as possible and to not suffer so much in my mind. I figured this was a great opportunity to exercise what I was learning and focus on what I was experiencing at the moment. I followed the bluish light, as I turned my head slightly to the left I saw the most amazing thing, it hovered in stillness yet it propelled itself to be idle. The light started from its center out and with each strike of its wings masses of bluish light came towards me. I immediately thought of my mother’s story of the black canary. She would tell me that their presence remained even after they had flown away. “What you see is their aura,” my mother would say.
“You are beautiful, where did you come from?” I asked.
Tears flowed uncontrollably. At this point, I was so open and in the moment. I listened closely to its response, it said “ I am you. It is I who you feel that has left you, but now you see that I am here in stillness yet always in movement. We are moving together, even in stillness.” And with that, similar to the Entity after its guidance, it disappeared.
I fell to my knees then hovered like a baby and cried as I held my solar plexus and thanked life for allowing me to live one more day. I thanked the blue bird for his message and for the first time in years I began to claim my inner peace again.
∞
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A memory unfolded.
I was 30 years old, living in San Diego, CA. An unexpected twist of events happened in my life - I’d fallen in love with another woman, a singer, a performer, a vibrant star and a free spirit. The most amazing thing was, she looked at me too – I created a smile in her being as well.
The reality though was that I was still in a relationship. Remember my girlfriend I told you about that met the Entity while we slept side by side – yes her – I was still in a relationship with her. My heart and spirit felt split in half. I did not know how to approach the situation. I was not ready for the unexpected. Yes, of course, being truthful and honest is the answer. And you would think that after everything I have experienced as a young man with the Sacred, my father and the Voice I would at least be mindful enough to approach the situation with clarity, yes I get that but – I choked. I truthfully did not have that capacity in that particular moment to think straight.
I didn’t want to talk about it with my friends anymore either since I noticed it was very taxing on them emotionally and spiritually. So, I began to take long walks, aimless long walks and my mind would race to try to figure it all out. I usually would end up crying out of desperation – nothing that would make my mind and heart be at peace was surfacing. None of the calming of the spirit and clearing of the mind exercises that I knew worked like previous times before.
One day, as I walked through a park I saw this bluish light flash by me. I had been reading books about being in the present moment, so I was making it a habit to be as present as much as possible and to not suffer so much in my mind. I figured this was a great opportunity to exercise what I was learning and focus on what I was experiencing at the moment. I followed the bluish light, as I turned my head slightly to the left I saw the most amazing thing, it hovered in stillness yet it propelled itself to be idle. The light started from its center out and with each strike of its wings masses of bluish light came towards me. I immediately thought of my mother’s story of the black canary. She would tell me that their presence remained even after they had flown away. “What you see is their aura,” my mother would say.
“You are beautiful, where did you come from?” I asked.
Tears flowed uncontrollably. At this point, I was so open and in the moment. I listened closely to its response, it said “ I am you. It is I who you feel that has left you, but now you see that I am here in stillness yet always in movement. We are moving together, even in stillness.” And with that, similar to the Entity after its guidance, it disappeared.
I fell to my knees then hovered like a baby and cried as I held my solar plexus and thanked life for allowing me to live one more day. I thanked the blue bird for his message and for the first time in years I began to claim my inner peace again.
∞
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Concept Art for The Crow's Aura.
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